leave them troubled boys all behind

I think we all struggle with fear. Even those of us who pretend that nothing ever scares us, deep down we're like five year-olds who need to sleep with the light on during a thunderstorm. Letting someone into your life is the scariest thing of all. I am absolutely frightened of how much I want this...I'm scared of ruining it, I'm scared of getting hurt, I'm scared of hurting someone, I'm scared of losing. But I think we have to do it afraid. If we didn't do things afraid, nothing would ever get done I suppose. "Fear means that you still have something to lose." Truer words were never spoken. I don't want to lose this. I am in this. Completely. It's scary how completely.

The semester is over...well, with the exception of a final that I have to turn in by Tuesday. The fall flew by. Way too fast. I just kind of feel like it's all ending...my senior recital is over, I'm applying for summerstock auditions, and soon my last semester of college will be over and then where does that leave me? I've never not known what's next, and I literally have no idea where I'm going or what I'm doing. It's just a fog. Mist. Abyss. Clouds. Whatever.

Applebee's sucks.
Jenna